its been a while since ive blogged,reason is tht,i have been real busy,work and also packing of stuffs.alhamdulilah,dah habis packed. and, weee ^^^ ive shifted to nat’s hse already. ((:
2012 is already showing in cinemas.yay.!!!!
well oh well,
im tired of giving in,i would let fate deal with this.i do not knw what will happen to us in future,ive tried my best to make it right and get us bck on the right track,but there were no response on the other side.it feels awkward,but ill try getting used to it,i do not see any point of me trying,but,on the other hand,you dnt even care.right now,i dnt even knw who to turn to.i have nat ofcourse.haish,for a really minor mistake of mine,and you have changed.say tht ive changed,i dnt knw if i can be bothered or not.yes,i really missed us hanging arnd together,it keeps bothering me,and i kept thinking where did i went wrong,tried to sort things out.like ive said,it takes two hands to clap.but,you dnt seem to care,i was expecting you to be there during the holidays.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Imagine being me.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
I just hate my life,my freedom,everything about me?
why cant i just live like my friends whom got everything i wanted.
urghhh,
enough of the frustration,i feel so alone at home now without sister.
parents and brother seems to be like a stranger now,been fighting with mum about going out,haiish
i really dont want history to repeat itself,
so please dont,urghhhhh!
and at work ! im just soo freaking mad and the sight of her just disgust me
fcuk \.* middle finger.
stop bossing me arnd, and stop acting like you are sooo perfect.
and please dnt think tht you are always right.
because you are just freaking annoying and i am hating you even more.
i thought you are a nice person,but perhaps you are BIASED.
let me repeat B.I.A.S.E.D ! fcuker.
i feel like im not needed anymore.
i feel like im not important.
i feel like im hopeless.
i feel like im nothing.
i feel worthless.
i feel useless.
i knw i am.
im frustrated.dont talk to me.
i miss iella,rad and amira.
why cant i just live like my friends whom got everything i wanted.
urghhh,
enough of the frustration,i feel so alone at home now without sister.
parents and brother seems to be like a stranger now,been fighting with mum about going out,haiish
i really dont want history to repeat itself,
so please dont,urghhhhh!
and at work ! im just soo freaking mad and the sight of her just disgust me
fcuk \.* middle finger.
stop bossing me arnd, and stop acting like you are sooo perfect.
and please dnt think tht you are always right.
because you are just freaking annoying and i am hating you even more.
i thought you are a nice person,but perhaps you are BIASED.
let me repeat B.I.A.S.E.D ! fcuker.
i feel like im not needed anymore.
i feel like im not important.
i feel like im hopeless.
i feel like im nothing.
i feel worthless.
i feel useless.
i knw i am.
im frustrated.dont talk to me.
i miss iella,rad and amira.
(:
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
I have been enjoying myself these few days.
on monday,i met Adnand!it has been ages since we last met.
psshhkkk! its sucha conincidence when he is at ws and i am working.
LOL,met him after work.
i called him straight after work.
me : adnand! i just finished work,where are you?
adnand : i am at the library.you want to meeet?
me : i anything,you want me to go there righttt?because you miss me so much.
adnand : no,its okay you knw if you dont want to come.
me : okay then.
adnand :kkkkk,i do ,i do ,come here quick.
haha,we managed to do some catching up,accompanied him to ntuc,and yeahh.
he sent me bck,dangerous rider,pshk.haha (:
and this is how adnand introduce me to his's friends .
him : kawan kawan ni aisyah,latiff punyaaa.
i was like! adnandddd ! hahah.
went out with A yesterday,accompanied him to CGH.
his kneecap had some problem and yet,he still insist on doing the heavy duties,
-_- tried to stop him,but no use,he still insist on doing all the activities.
dinner-ed at BK,and he sent me back,
at night,spent time with cuzzie ! OUH ! i miss them so much,it has been a while since the five of us hang out together.
hahaha ~
and we are planning to get the same dress together .
hahaha ! (:
weeee ^^^
LIMITS
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Everything has its limit.
you have gone wayyy beyond my limit,i understand you have PMS.
but pleeeeaseee i am a girl and i do have my PMS too,but you knw,i know tht it can be controlled if you want to.
you are just making an excuse of your fcukingly irritating attitude.
please mind your words,think before you talk.
you have been bossing me arnd,but i just kept shut abt it.
everytime your words have been really hurtful,and i really felt like crying
but i just held bck my tears,
pleaseeee.i always wake up at night,accompany you to the toilet,and this is what i get in return.
urghh!
Next,
eversince i started working,yes,my schedule have been really packed,
but urghh! you dont have to say such things ya know?
i was really offended,
yes,i admit when you called i was already sleeping,
and when you msged i texted only like bit by bit
you knew tht i was tired,therefore you did not complaint.
i appreciates tht,and also im sorry,
i cant go out with you tmr bcause im working,
i am in need of cash now,i am seriously broke.
i do not want to depend on my parents for money,they too have their own things to settle.
if only money is not important in life,
i wouldnt have to work.
I AM SORRY.
I AM STRESS,LIKE SERIOUSLY !
you have gone wayyy beyond my limit,i understand you have PMS.
but pleeeeaseee i am a girl and i do have my PMS too,but you knw,i know tht it can be controlled if you want to.
you are just making an excuse of your fcukingly irritating attitude.
please mind your words,think before you talk.
you have been bossing me arnd,but i just kept shut abt it.
everytime your words have been really hurtful,and i really felt like crying
but i just held bck my tears,
pleaseeee.i always wake up at night,accompany you to the toilet,and this is what i get in return.
urghh!
Next,
eversince i started working,yes,my schedule have been really packed,
but urghh! you dont have to say such things ya know?
i was really offended,
yes,i admit when you called i was already sleeping,
and when you msged i texted only like bit by bit
you knew tht i was tired,therefore you did not complaint.
i appreciates tht,and also im sorry,
i cant go out with you tmr bcause im working,
i am in need of cash now,i am seriously broke.
i do not want to depend on my parents for money,they too have their own things to settle.
if only money is not important in life,
i wouldnt have to work.
I AM SORRY.
I AM STRESS,LIKE SERIOUSLY !
(:
Thursday, October 29, 2009
seriously i feel like missing someone,
and really really hope to meet tht someone.
&&&& at least a text message from tht someone,
even if it is a 'Hello' msg,i think i would be jumping.LOL.
November is approachingg!good thing is tht,rad will be finishing her Os.
and will be partyingggg all the wayyy!
hahaha!but ofcourse we will be working to SHOPSHOPSHOP! (:
however,the bad thing is tht,my family and i will be shifting on the 2nd week of november,butt,i have yet to pack all my baju.pshkkk.
i think ill be starting today since im off!but,shelve by shelve,too many clothes,i think ill be giving some away too.to make more room for my new clothes?haha,insyallah.
i am really sure i am going to spend my first pay to clear my debts,to dye my hair,and to get tht biker jacket tht i have beeen eyeinggg forrrr.insyallah cukuup.amiin.
going out at 10 today,got to make a fast clean up of the house,pack the clothes,you knw.
and yay! will have sleepover many houses,my plan
first week , nenek's house,
second, ciktok's
third , maybe tok ?
if i were to go home lateee,ill be sleeping over the nearby houses as i am afraid to go bck nenek's house alone at night for it is very very quiet at night,and i am a girl,so yeah.
hehe, ouh gosh!idk what to wear for today.
Today's plan :
- go search a place which only require one day to alter my freakingly long work pants.
- teman iella to town interview
- walked around town with iella,
- go to tamp and look arnd there
ouh ! a friend of mine told me he maybe applied for a job at explorer kids,and if he gets it,he will recommend me,and whats more it is paid WEEKLY,which means i can shopp every weekend!good offer.but well,it is not confirmed,i maybe want to find another job,not being greedy,just tht i want to experience juggling two job and earn more,for my pay is not tht high(: .and maybe i am resigning,cause i do a lot of work and i am only paid $4 an hour? pshkkk.if managers hired more beanies,i think i can easily quit,but oh wells,down beanies now,gotta help out,pity nian feng she is always alone at night.
i had a funny conversation with shahrul yesterday.
shahrul: hi aisyah.
me: ignore.
shahrul: smbg sia kau skrg.
me: smile.
Shahrul : yerrlaaa,mana nak mkn burger kat pasar malam nan aku lagii.
me : start laughing,mana nak ajak aku lagii.
shahrul: mana nak msg aku lagiii.
me: mana nak ajak aku lepak lagii.
both laughhh.
Labels: msg me (:
BlaBlaBla
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
When i browse through photos or even watched videos of celebrities especially,i really hope my body would be like them.
bottom line : i want to lose weight.
friends have been saying i am suffering from aneroxic.
i am now 44 kg,but i will be satisfied if i reached 40 kg.
butttt,since i am working at Fast food restaurant,it will not be easy as the foods are all DEEP FRIED.
so i really have to be careful in choosing the food for my emc.
i think i should take Youghurt,apple pie and choc shake (:
I am really really concerned about my weight.
i hope i got high metabilism,so i can eat whenever and whatever i want.
i purposely took off till the 13th so i can spend time with rad and iella.
november is approaching.yay ! ^^
and also i took off on alternate fridays so tht i can spend time with kak arini ! (:
sweetkann sweetkaaannn! haha.
And i miss NAT vvvvvm!
HAPPY BELATED 17TH yeahh.
all the best for your Os. ! (:
B! i feel so lonely taww at work without you.
pshk! come back sooooooon.
all the best for your Os.
andddd,i want to alter my work pants.
its sooooo longgggg.
pshkk! and i am meeting iella tmr ! ^^ haha.
I do not know why i am still expecting a message from him.
weird.but what i know is tht,i do not have feeling for anybody.w!nks.
working at 12 today !
see you !
Monday, October 26, 2009
i am not going to blabber about things here.
i really love it when you sent me bck home tht time.
and i think i miss you.
whatever,k dah.
Im bored.working at 12 today. bye .
